My sweet friend, Barnabas. |
“The harvest is plenty,
but the workers are few.”
Matthew 9:27
I have to
admit, I am a Mexico girl. From the
first time I stepped foot onto the Back2Back campus in Monterrey, Mexico, June
2007, I felt completely at home. Through
the last several years, my journeys have taken me from spending a week each
year in Mexico to spending two weeks, to the point where I am now, spending at
least 10 weeks a year in Mexico.
I’m also
bold enough to say that I am completely spoiled and blessed. I have my wonderful friends and family in the
U.S. and a wonderful family in Mexico I have taken as my own. Although I have no biological grandchildren
yet, there are three (soon to be four!) precious cherubs in Mazatlán, Mexico
that I call mine. I have the sweetest
friendships imaginable with Back2Back staff members. My sweet husband works so hard to afford us
the opportunity to invest in Back2Back, giving me the chance to be flexible
with my schedule and travel to Mexico as needed. Let’s suffice it to say I am completely invested in Mexico.
But, I just
took a jump off the high dive and have had the experience of a lifetime in Jos,
Nigeria. I wish just by writing, those
who read could truly understand the pictures of the last eight days. Although I don’t believe words could ever do this
experience justice, my heart is so heavy to express the incredible need of the
orphans and widows in Jos that I feel I must try.
Eighteen
team members were welcomed to Nigeria by Back2Back staff members, Daniel Asama
and Tracy Smart. After traveling for
close to 24 hours, we stepped out of the Abuja airport to sights, smells, and
sounds unfamiliar. I knew immediately I
was completely out of my comfort zone and was watching in anticipation of what
God was going to do through me and in me throughout the next eight days.
Those eight
days were hard; I’m not going to lie!
Right before I left the U.S., I had the closest thing to an all out
panic attack I’ve ever had. I doubt
anyone loves sleep as much as I do, and I lost a lot of it on the travel to get
to Nigeria. We had a five hour time
difference to deal with as we tried to adjust our internal clocks. We rode four hours from the airport from Jos
to Abuja and back in vans. We were hot,
sweaty, and dusty. The food was
unfamiliar. We slept in a converted
hostile without air conditioning and most of us awoke each morning at 4 am to
the sound of the Muslim call to prayer a mile or so outside of our gated
compound. We even had a couple of days
of being awakened in the night to the sounds of team members having major stomach issues. Many of us would have paid at least $20 for a
cup of ice water. (I think I was up to $100!)
We were mostly disconnected from our loved ones at home with extremely
limited internet and unreliable electricity.
Before you stop reading, now hear the
awesome!
God does amazing things when He puts His people in places completely at
His mercy. Moses argued that he was not
an eloquent speaker. “Pick Aaron!” he
said. But the Lord chose Moses. Gideon watched
his army dwindle to 300 Israelites to defeat an entire Mideonite army. The ratio was absolutely ridiculous: like one
Israelite to every 450 Mideonites. Both
Joseph and Daniel risked their lives interpreting God’s truth in the dreams of
polytheistic kings. God used the faith
and boldness of a Jewish orphan named Esther to save His people from being
horrifically slaughtered. I could go on
forever with stories that illustrate what happens when God puts one of His own
into a completely impossible situation.
Because I
could write for days about all the awesome things that happened on this trip, I
have picked two days I am going to highlight.
My prayer is that God uses my words and stories to communicate to each
one of you both the blessings and the incredible need waiting in Nigeria.
My daughter,
Kassie, interned for seven weeks in Nigeria the summer of 2011. One of the fruits of that time is the
sponsorship of a beautiful Nigerian girl named Esther. As a family, we have loved and prayed for her
over the last three years. One of the
most exciting parts of this trip was that I was going to finally get to meet
precious Esther.
In December,
Esther’s 13 year old sister, Felicia was tragically killed after being hit by a
car. When I arrived in Nigeria, I asked
many questions regarding the adjustment of Esther’s mom and sisters to the loss
of Felicia. As you can imagine, the
family is having a hard time dealing with this loss. But to add insult to injury, there is much
speculation rooted in cultural superstition surrounding her death. Within the village, family members, including
Esther, have been accused of practicing witchcraft and told they were to blame
for this horrible accident.
In my small
group on the day I was going to meet Esther, I shared that one of my prayers
for the day was the opportunity to speak God’s truth into Esther and remind her
of the precious princess she is. Can you
even imagine being 11 and told you
were the reason your sister died?
Thankfully, for once in my life, I had the sense to ask some more
questions before I started asking her questions about all these accusations. I found out that it was unclear how much she
knew of the accusations against her and was lovingly advised to guard what I
said.
I have to
admit that I was somewhat confused. I
really felt I heard God’s call to proclaim truth over this family. But, if her knowledge was indeed limited as
to specific accusations against her, I sure didn’t want to be the one to directly
or indirectly tell her!
Later in the
afternoon, we walked around the village praying as a group for various
situations there. Daniel mentioned
wanting to walk to one of the widow’s houses to pray for her, and I thought her
name sounded familiar. As we stepped
closer to the house, I realized he wanted us to pray with Esther’s mom.
You know
that feeling of absolute panic because you realize the plan you had, which
would have been comfortable, has just spun right into the complete discomfort
zone? I quickly started rationalizing in
my head.
“Ok, Lord, I
thought You wanted me to proclaim truth over this family. But to Esther….and in private. Right now I’m surrounded by a bunch of team
members, most who I don’t know very well yet!
My words get all mixed up in my head when I haven’t planned them
out. Remember how You made me? I can generate conversation with children easily! But I don’t enjoy being emotional and vulnerable in front of
adults. So, I think I’ll pass on this
one!”
That second,
my sweet friend Beth leaned over and whispered, “This is exactly the chance you
prayed for this morning!”
I don’t know
if the look on my face reflected it, but I was getting a little sick to my
stomach. I knew I would become emotional
talking to Esther’s mom about Esther and Felicia and I do NOT like to cry in
front of people. This was not at all
what I had prayed for!
I quickly
replied to Beth, “I prayed for a chance to talk to Esther. This is her mom and she is an adult who
doesn’t even speak much English!” I
didn’t even bother to add the fact that I was surrounded by almost 25 people
that I didn’t really know.
I know Beth
said something else to me, but I don’t even remember what it was. By this point I was feeling pretty much like
I imagine Moses felt when God asked him to speak to the Israelites.
“Seriously,
Jesus? Can’t someone else do this?”
I moved
closer to this beautiful woman and began to speak. I don’t remember what I said. I don’t know what the impact of my words
was. Although Daniel was interpreting for
me, I don’t even know if she understood exactly what I was trying to say. But I believe God used me to minister to
her. I believe that because once I
opened my mouth, His truth began to flow forth.
I walked away knowing that I had obeyed.
God asked me to do something and I did it, even though I did not want
to. Those moments became as much about
obedience as ministering to her. Once
again, God showed me what He does in an “only He can do it” moment.
That
occurred on our first day we were ministering and working. Now, fast forward to our last day. We visited two incredible ministries that
Back2Back is not partnering with on a regular basis.
One of these
places is a orphanage named Kids With A Vision.
The woman who manages the home, Grace Adams, shared her story of how God
provided her with a house to give many children an education and a home. But she also shared of her great need. Her two greatest difficulties are clean water
and food for the kids. Yet she
continually trusts God to provide.
The other
place we went to that day is called Grace Gardens. It is a ministry focused on women and
children living in the local brothels.
The director, Missy, goes into the brothels, weekly ministering to the
people there. Currently, the facility is
full, yet Missy cannot say no to the needs of these women. It costs about $4000 a month to run this
ministry and $1500 is covered in sponsorship from the States. The rest comes from their pockets or random
donations. Like Grace at Kids With A
Vision, Missy chooses to believe every day that God will continue to provide
for their current and future needs.
I had the
opportunity to have a quiet conversation with Leah Smart in transit from one
place to another that day.
“What do we
need to do to get involved with these ministries, Leah?” I asked. My heart was so burdened by the need of these
ministries. Not only for financial
support, but also for being a set of familiar faces, regularly pouring into the
lives of these beautiful women and children.
“More staff,”
she gently replied. “The four staff
members we have in Nigeria, Tracy and I included, are stretched completely
thin. We go 100 miles an hour six and
even seven days a week. I don’t know how
we could take on anything else.”
In that
moment, I truly thought my heart would break.
I think the weight of the urgency completely hit me. But in complete contrast to the helplessness
I felt, came the utter resolve to become another voice for the needs in
Nigeria.
We need
people to become child sponsors! There
are beautiful children there who not only need the financial support that comes
with these sponsorships, but also the letters and the knowledge they have
someone who is praying for them every day.
We need
groups! I can promise if you are willing
to go and lean into Jesus throughout your time there, listening for His voice,
you will have one of the most incredible experiences of your life. Notice I didn’t say easy, but without a
doubt, incredible. Can I add here that I
have been unable to find anywhere in God’s word where He calls us to easy service?
As a group
member, not only are you able to pour into the children, the local people, and
the Back2Back staff, but realistically many staff members come from being a
group member. I have personally watched people
come on trips and leave called to minister as a futureBack2Back staff member
both short and long term.
We need
staff! There are so many more children
who need our help and support! But, a
very important value of Back2Back is to go deep and not wide. We cannot go wider until we have the
resources necessary to continue going deep with the homes and villages we work
with currently.
What are the
reasons holding you back? Are you
afraid? Oh gosh, I was, too. Do you have
a connection with a child in Mexico? I
do, too. Do you feel like it is too hard
to divide your interest? I did, too. Are you already struggling financially and
don’t know how you could add another financial commitment? We are, too.
Is it enough
to know that God has called us to serve these precious people? Is it enough to know that they NEED us? Step out in faith and let our precious Jesus
handle the details.
Look for Moses to be featured in an upcoming Back2Back magazine! |